Tired and tireder

*sigh* Steven has been having nightmares for almost 10 days now, and is often walking in his sleep. I am a light sleeper, and so I am awake while he is thrashing and moaning- then I have been quietly directing him back to bed after he wanders around the house. Some of the things he says are hurtful, but I know he isn't responsible for what he is saying. It is his unconscious. Still hurts though. And that is all I can think of to write. LOL I am too tired to think, I think!

She's 24 today

Happy Birthday to you, my darling daughter. May the day be filled with as much love, joy, and laughter as you have brought into our family.

I love you greatly- Mom

Drama Mama

a new day a new daughter
has been born
tired of the blather and bother
I am turning out the light
on an old and useless wish
cardboard cutout
and one dimensional
is obviously good enough
for me.

No more facebook

Too much drama for me. I will stick to my blogs, thank you very much! Ciao for now!!

from the oven

from the oven

by Gina Vance on Wednesday, April 27, 2011 at 7:26pm

the aroma of roasted turkey

filling the house awoke buried

memories from a long-ago

little girls heart today

they seem to go hand in hand

with cranberry-jelly-belly-laughs

and bread and butter dialogues

singing around the kitchen table

lemon meringue pie and coffee

strong and black

there is a sense of holiday

and a hunger for yesterday

as my nose takes me on this journey

to happy childhood days

my Papa in his white undershirt

cigarette smoke (menthol flavored)

lingers there mingling with the scent of sweat

and a talcum powdered bosom

Grams rose scented perfume smelled

like heaven and home to me

I see them in my minds' eye

love written on every wrinkle and gray hair...

what a lovely feast of heart

to nibble on and cherish

as I finish up these dishes

delicious!

fervor

reverent whispers fill the hallway

see them tip-toe as they gather

as they gather at the river

on a Sunday afternoon

babies crying tempers heating

fans moving to and fro

create breezes for the flies to enjoy

little boys picking boogers

little girls squirming

hot sweaty thighs stuck

on those old wooden pews

trees strung with moss and antiquity

and the asphalt in the parking-lot

fries eggs and bare feet in the shade

hymns are sung and prayers released

too heavy with humidity and guilt to fly

up and out to heaven or down to hell

relief in the form of a shouted "Hallelujah"

ejaculation for the soul? I've always wondered

as my mind wanders in and out of holy byways

into yesterday's sin.

Amen Brothers and Sisters. Amen.

Today (a poem)

The sun is struggling to stay afloat
in the ocean of clouds that fill the sky
It is a wonder to watch the play
of light and dark as shadows wander
through the garden and yard
The trees are shrugging off their winter's cloak
the wind is whispering thoughts of spring
of green and growing things-
I hear chickadees singing and laughing
preparing for nests and bird love
while I sit here with my coffee
watching the day glide by me
dreaming of sunshine and warmth.

After he called

taking slow and
deep breaths
trying to match my insides
to my outsides
calm cool collected
instead of roiling wriggling
anxiety and anger
sitting tightly in the
middle
of my stomach.

We are here We are here We are Here!!!!!

We are in our new place, and outside of unpacking hell, it is wonderful. It sits on 2/3 of an acre of fruit and nut trees, and has a fenced back yard. It is 3 bedroom 1 bath and 1600 sq feet. It has a wood burning fireplace, and a nice workable kitchen. With a dishwasher! *grin* I loves it much lots!!

Merry Christmas!!!!!!!!!!!

And a Happy New Year!!

Yes Virginia, there is a Santa Claus...

and we are finally moving! Hurray!!

We found a house in Beaverton OR and will be moving in on the 13-14th of December. Finally! *laughing* So, say 'Yay'! and I will catch you all on the flip side!!

:o)

Tired

Still waiting for word on Steven's father. The hospital reports 'No Change' at this time. There was very little brain activity last night. Waiting is exhausting.

Happy Anniversary Steven!

25 years! It doesn't seem like it has been that long! I am looking forward to what the next 25 holds for us!

I love you. As simple and profound as that.

Always your, Gina

Blah

Ever feel so tired- just so freakin' tired that you have to almost remind yourself to take a breath? That is where I am at right now. *sigh*

Yes, it's the song that never ends...

or, same song, different chorus, or how about, same words, different harmony. Regardless of the sound, the words are incredibly old now, and I am sick to death of listening to it. I think I need a new record to play.

your actions are louder
than any word ever spoken
your choices tell the lies
your mouth forms with words

trust is a broken window
shattered and splintered
on the ground around us
it's not my fault though

you never said 'No'.

emptiness is a verb

my heart still aches
at times
for 'used to be's'
and 'was'
before 'she' entered my world
and yours.

why do you have to
love her?

the air feels heavy
with unspoken words
they are hanging
in the room
between us today.

I am tired.
*sigh*

response to a poetry challenge

I love to watch you slither
your body smooth against the sheets
sending chills down my spine
I quiver with anticipation
already savoring your hunger
on my lips and tongue...

your scales gleam in
the light of the candles
irridescent in the flickering flames
our shadows entwined in a sinuous dance
mimicking our movements

time is an ephemeral concept
not worth noting as we connect
in this physical dimension
tune out the sounds of your life
for you are mine until the sun
is as burned as we are

consumed by our passion
and then reborn through
the sweat of our pleasure.

Home again with a quick update...

Samuel (the new baby) is a very mellow fellow- happiest being cuddled against an ample bosom, and smiling whenever sung to. The other two are splendiferous, as well. Johnny is so typically little boy; into everything dinosaur related, and busy busy busy. Kaitlin was my shadow the entire visit; a constantly chattering and singing delightful baby bird, who refers to herself as my 'Sweetheart'. *smiling* It was so fun, and OMG exhausting. *laughing* I've slept like a dead thing last couple of nights! :oD

Happy News!

Samuel David made his appearance this afternoon at 5:44pm. He weighed in at 8lbs, 11oz, and is 20-3/4" long. Both Mother & baby are well! Hooray!!

It's Pun-Day

What's The Difference Between A Regular Toad And A Horny Toad?
One Say's "rib-it. rib-it" while the other one says "rub-it rub-it"