The Search

I have looked for truth in many places
sometimes darkness
other times light

I have found her in bed
on my back in my face
on my knees

begging her to stay
and teach me
how to do it

stay sane stay safe
be wanted
be whole

I found her the day before yesterday
in a spider's web
on a door frame

long disused
dusty with neglect
so elegant in the sunlight

with beads of mist
like small pearls
of gathered wisdom

hanging there
for me to gather and
drink down her heart.